Love Never Quits!
I received some personal positive feed back from some of you when I composed my Health Update and Personal Journal for you on The Journey Continues. I feel to continue in this vain once again, giving a more personal inside look at what life is really like in the Goll household and ministry at this time. So – I am titling this update – Persistence Will Pay Off!
I want to say right at the top – Love Never Quits! Last time, I told you I was learning to love where there is no return. But you know – that really is not the full truth either. This type of God love expects nothing in return – but it does come. But it might come in forms that are unexpected. I recall one such incident recently when I left the hospital one night – leaving Michal Ann in the care of our dear friend Kathy Colbert – and it was one of those days where her communications skills were just not all in tact.
I was leaving somewhat broken hearted from the hospital that night, as she had not even been able to say my name that day. Sometimes, I just feel like I cannot take much more of this – I then cry out to the Lord again – and He meets me somehow – He sustains me. He, indeed, is my life!
Well, this was one of those difficult days – I was trying to say goodbye that evening and I was choking up as I was leaving – I turned around on my way out – and one of those “God rushes” happened. She smiled at me and she waved to me. I melted. It felt like it was the best intimate embrace I had received in over two years. She smiled at me! (Sounds like a book title to me!) Oh my, it warmed my being – I can feel it again right now as sensitively pen this personal moment. “She smiled at me.” Amazing!
Did you know that love never quits? “Love never fails”, Paul the apostle wrote to us. In how many weddings have I read the famous “love chapter” to young romantic couples…. But that chapter means more to me today than ever before. Love never quits. When all else fails – and yes, people and circumstances will fail to meet all your needs – there is something that remains forever – love never fails and love never gives up.
Home for Just One Day
I came home four days early from my Israel Prayer and Compassion trip as my dear wife was getting released from the Rehab Unit and was coming home. I wanted to be there. So I turned that last few days of our monumental trip over to the capable hands of Avner Boskey, Mark Roye and others. Michal Ann made it to our Franklin country hilltop home on that Friday afternoon and I made it in late that night. Wow – she was home. Jasmine and Jesse – our two dogs were so excited to see “mom.” The house was somewhat full once again. Even if she was weak – she was home.
But it did not last long. By Saturday evening she had a spiking fever that reached over 103 degrees and she began to vomit all over herself on three different occasions. It was hard and it was so sad. We had God TV on in the other room and the anointing was so strong coming through the airwaves from the Florida Healing Revival – that I could not help but think that we were having an open war of one Spirit confronting another spirit. We had few options and had to move quickly. Did we pray? Well, of course we prayed! But Kathy and I had to respond with lightening speed, an ambulance was called and quickly we were off to the Williamson Medical Center again by 9 PM that night. Once again, it was an all nighter – it was 5 am by the time she was finally admitted to the hospital that morning.
At the time of this writing, she has now been back in the hospital for another 16 days. The fever is gone – hopefully the infection is gone – the swelling in her brain has only gone down about 1/3 of the way. There remains a pool of blood on her brain from the earlier broken blood vessel. We are not sure why it has not dissolved more and why the swelling has not really been reduced much either. She remains disoriented one day and then sometimes a few hours later will be somewhat present and alert. She remains quite weak but still smiles. One of the oncology doctors has said that she is the most pleasant patient they have ever had. I can believe that – cause that is my Annie.
We have waited for another rehab unit in the area to open up – but since none did, Michal Ann actually returned home this week! She still has care round the clock but we are thrilled to once again have her HOME!
New from My Corner
I had a PET scan a couple of weeks ago and received my report the following day. I still did not receive the Great News that the cancer is all gone and the growths no longer exist. Instead, I was told that things are in the same condition they have been for some time. Two small growths – one 1 ½ inches by 1 inch and the other 1 inch by 1 inch but with active cancer in them. This is not the news I was expecting – I honestly believed I would get a report saying the cancer was all gone.
But I am undaunted by this report – stable – but no improvement. God’s word says I am healed and I believe His word more than I do my temporary report! So I will have scans done again in six months and I do expect to receive a report that there is no more cancer.
I am returning now from being on the road for another week – I had a tremendous time of ministry in Bogata, Columbia, South America with 1,000 leaders from across the nation. The Lord was good indeed and I found great favor with the leaders there. I taught on Gatekeepers of His Presence and the Apostolic Return to Antioch. In one session the weeping presence of the Lord broke out and it was priceless. Then I have been to Phoenix, Arizona where I ministered at the conclusion of Patricia King’s Growing in the Supernatural Conference. What a delight it was to be there. What a hungry crowd with people receiving healing, moving into open visions and visitations. It was truly apostolic in nature.
I then spent Monday filming 8 more web shows for PrayerStorm. So I will now have 20 shows already filmed and ready to launch by this fall. So that is great! I flew home on Tuesday night and am enjoying time with the family and having my dear wife home. Keep us in your prayers!
Thank You!!
Thank you for standing and praying with us over these many months. Please continue to pray for Michal Ann’s and my full restoration. We believe in miracles and that is what it is going to take at this point. Thank you for listening to my/our heart – because we believe that Persistence Will Pay Off and that Love Never Fails! We have come a long way and we still have a way to go.
But remember, together, in Jesus, we make a great team!
James W. & Michal Ann Goll
James & Michal Ann Goll 