Many of you know, that Michal Ann was taken back into the hospital on Friday, August 15 and just came home again on Friday, August 22. Her cancers markers in a ten day period of time more than doubled. They have reached a level of over 50,000 – this of course, is dangerously high. The amount of active cancer in Michal Ann’s body is higher now than it was back in February when she only had 3 weeks to live.
The doctor privately told me that he did not think she would make it home from the hospital this time. So I was advised to take all necessary practical steps required. So with many tears I followed the counsel given to me and put some things in order. As Don Finto in Nashville told me some weeks ago, “Pray and believe that she will be healed, yet make the necessary plans as though she will not.” That might not sound appropriate to some of you – but it is the realistic tension we are walking in and when it fell on my ears I believed it to be a “word of wisdom.”
Well, Michal Ann is like the cat with nine lives and she just keeps bouncing back – somehow. Probably, because of her tenacious ability to fight, your willingness to pray and God’s willingness to respond.
Greater Clarity on Michal Ann’s Condition
It seems that she started to have some pneumonia spring up on her upper left lung and fluid again on her lower right lung. They put her on antibotics that we think took care of the pneumonia and they did a procedure using a needle to withdraw the fluid off her lungs.
This has helped her to breathe better and be in less discomfort and able to rest. She is back on oxygen again and is very disoriented mentally much of the time. She has come a long way again though, but she has truly slipped significantly. The doctor is going to wait another week before having her do her next chemotherapy treatment. So that will not occur until the Tuesday after Labor Day.
Medically (in the natural), we are in a time war. She needs more time for the chemo to break up the tumors in her lung(s) and other locations. But she also has to be strong enough to bear the brunt of these brutal treatments.
Some say, just stop all the treatments. But Michal Ann says she still wants to fight. And as long as that is her desire – we will fight with every means available.
Our sensitive doctor is being very careful that old patterns do not repeat – so every precaution is being put in place. So we are very grateful to the Lord for this.
The Veil is So Thin
Right now the veil between the eternal and the temporal seems very thin for Michal Ann. In the hospital this past week she had two different experiences in which she seemed to be interacting with something in the spiritual realm. So I am watching to see what she might see or experience next.
We thank the Lord Michal Ann came home Friday, Aug 21st. She had to be carried into the house by Paul Ehm, who lives with us, as she is not strong enough to walk on her own. She is very weak and disoriented most of the time. But we stand waiting . . . waiting for the stirring of the waters . . . waiting for the tumors to disappear . . . waiting for strength to reappear . . . waiting for the more . . . knowing He is enough!!!
Having Michal Ann back home is challanging and in some ways it is quite hard. But we want what she wants and the doctor gave her a choice of a rehab unit or coming home – well she became very alert and responded, “I want to go home!” So home she is with Smokey our cat lying right next to her in her hospital bed.
How Am I?
Physically, I still have two small tumors behind my stomach area. One is one inch by one and a half inches and the other is one inch by one inch. They both still have active cancer in them but it is contained. So I will return in about 4 more months for another round of scans to see where my health is at that time. I will let you know more as I know more.
Right now, I am very torn and at times emotionally spent. It is not easy living in the tension of faith and the reality of where things are in the natural. I still cry for mercy for Michal Ann to be fully healed! And yet, the journey has been so long – there are times I just want her released from this pain and suffering in this mortal body and to go on to her eternal reward.
So I am lifting a cry for mercy.
Will you lift a cry for mercy with me?
So there you have it! Another transparent update from a modern day weeping Jeremiah. But always rest assured, we believe that God is good all the time and His mercies endure forever!
WITH A CRY FOR MERCY!
JAMES W. GOLL
AND THE ENTIRE GOLL FAMILY!
James & Michal Ann Goll 